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    Trixia Salonga

    Hi! I'm Trixia and welcome to my slice of life. I'm not your average blogger, I'm a hybrid of multi-dimensional shoujo, a rare breed of legal loli and a unique original producer of ideas and inspiration. My path goes on the other side of the road which is less traveled, where thrill and excitement rests. This blog holds my inner thoughts, experiences, opinions and out-of-the-ordinary theories which I keep as a journal of my life's highlights. Contact me at reshadollyprincess@gmail.com for collaboration
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    To be honest, its hard to influence my family to switch in ecoways, they've used to the fact of using plastic items for almost their whole lifetime and we sometimes argue when I remind them to not consume plastic, yet they still come back. I've had meaw switch to a wooden toothbrush, he is now switching back to plastic again, why? and after all these months of tries. Wooden toothbrushes tend to attract mold, our first floor where he usually leaves his toothbrush is always flooded and leaving your toothbrush there to airdry is a bad idea. I reckon that most of our wooden furnitures has molds in it, and its hard to convince the owner to either replace or throw them away, there would be no argument since its always an authoritarian relationship we had.

    Loofah switch



    My first experimental step was changing our old sponge to loofah sponge, my first thoughts include will it effectively clean? How long will it last?
    To my surprise it lasted more than 3 months before it became really soft or mushy but after the experiment, we've monthly change sponges for sanitation purposes. This one lasted 3 mos, done only for trial period. Some observations on use that you'll have to use a bit of muscle to sponge up greasiness, because it'll stick and you'll do at least 3 or 4 washes if you're using light pressure, but I didn't feel guilty with disposing the used loofahs since they degrade easily and environmentally friendly.

    Our trash issues has problems with snack wrappings, something I can't prevent my family from switching to different snacks, cheezy wrappers, tortillos, 711 food wraps especially at busy times. Those are things that I see we find hard to avoid. Sometimes, I thought of maybe subscribing to healthy meal delivery, but I've been warned since my stomach is sensitive plus the cost, so I've dropped the idea.

    One time we did the bunch cooking for a week, the ones we did when I was studying medicine at Laguna. Stored in freezer and just reheat it, early planning. It was a great convenience and budget friendly, we even saved money for a new gadget at the end of the week! However, the next weekend, schedules poured in like waterfalls and we were not able to conform to the bunch cooking again.

    It was short but I loved how time saving bunch cooking is, and we had spent time together cooking a fun activity plus healthy and you're sure of the handling process. I'll invite them to do this again whenever we can.

    The wooden toothbrush



    I've ordered a bunch of toothbrush at shopee around 10 pcs for 100 pesos, it was great, till I saw plastic packaging inside, it did feel I still consumed plastic. Anyway, my first thoughts include is the bristle soft? Will it make gums bleed? How long will it last? Is it sanitary to use?

    I've used them for 5 mos now and influenced partner to use at the same time, but he said he'll be switching back to plastic. Why? Yeah molds and comfort are two things he didn't like. He said his gums bleed and molds tend to get attracted, so he had to change frequently. For me, it was bleeding gums, but it didn't mold since I store it inside a dry container in the cabinet. I will continue using it but I wish to find a supplier that won't use plastic packaging.

    Eco Bags



    My first step was to buy my favorite eco bag with a print of a cute sleeping dog named paningning. It was small, however I have more of them coming from my blogging gigs, I've collected them near door area so when we go out, it'll remind my partner to bring one eco bag. We were able to exercise for 4 mos but on 5th month my partner grew tired and forgot to bring them anymore. Sigh.

    Traditional japanese cookwares



    This one is my favorite, since we needed new cookwares and I'm swooning over the ones koreans uses on their videos. We have blessing of japanese thrift shops in our area, the best part is that the ones I brought was never used, kept and almost brand new! We started with clay pots, wood cups, rice wooden scoops.

     Claypots are the steal, they cook everything enhancing flavor and good temperature quite nicely! The cups are light and visually pleasing yet they tend to break easily, but its only worth 15 to 20 per piece and I needed to exchange only one so its fine.

    Small cute rectangular plates were blessing, they were being sold in munoz shoe store, yes shoe store sold for P 10.00 each and we took them all, we didn't find out at first but it was plastic.

    The cursed iron cast

    My partner was taken at the sight of a heavy black iron cast soup cookware, he didn't even inspect it but when we tried cooking on it, we noticed a taste different. There was rust underneath and it got into our food, we're fine except for the recent trips to bathroom. He says he'll need to clean it before using it again.

    Japanese art tray



    We scored one almost brand new tray that just arrived for a price around 200 pesos. It came with a box, so artistic, I didn't throw it out, kept it and used as storage for other things. The tray is bigger than usual plastic trays bought on superstores and the art oh, the art is made by japanese artist, I feel guilty to use it, but I have to use it that's why i bought it.

    Glass food container

    Glass food container worked great in preserving cooked food, I stored sinigang in it for 7 days and it perfectly preserved even with veggies, the downside with it is that it comes with plastic lid which secures it well however still is plastic. This practice was a real time and effort saver, for cooking food ahead for one week means that I won't need to cook for the next days again and that leaves me to only cook rice instead, saves so much time and effort!

    Were still a long way to go with our practice of eco ways, right now I couldn't help my family to stop consuming plastic carbonated drinks, heck they'll kill me if I try to stop them, so what we only do is bring them to recycling shops nearby or whenever a magbobote comes by and buys our plastics. How do you think I can convince my family not to consume plastic wrapped chips or plastic carbonated ones when they feel that it saves them a lot of money and effort, also whenever they buy something outside, how do I convince them everytime not to have it in plastic? It's tough but if you have anymore ideas, it would be a great help if you can suggest.

    . Friday, August 16, 2019 .

    My efforts in switching to eco ways

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    . Friday, August 16, 2019 .

    To be honest, its hard to influence my family to switch in ecoways, they've used to the fact of using plastic items for almost their whole lifetime and we sometimes argue when I remind them to not consume plastic, yet they still come back. I've had meaw switch to a wooden toothbrush, he is now switching back to plastic again, why? and after all these months of tries. Wooden toothbrushes tend to attract mold, our first floor where he usually leaves his toothbrush is always flooded and leaving your toothbrush there to airdry is a bad idea. I reckon that most of our wooden furnitures has molds in it, and its hard to convince the owner to either replace or throw them away, there would be no argument since its always an authoritarian relationship we had.

    Loofah switch



    My first experimental step was changing our old sponge to loofah sponge, my first thoughts include will it effectively clean? How long will it last?
    To my surprise it lasted more than 3 months before it became really soft or mushy but after the experiment, we've monthly change sponges for sanitation purposes. This one lasted 3 mos, done only for trial period. Some observations on use that you'll have to use a bit of muscle to sponge up greasiness, because it'll stick and you'll do at least 3 or 4 washes if you're using light pressure, but I didn't feel guilty with disposing the used loofahs since they degrade easily and environmentally friendly.

    Our trash issues has problems with snack wrappings, something I can't prevent my family from switching to different snacks, cheezy wrappers, tortillos, 711 food wraps especially at busy times. Those are things that I see we find hard to avoid. Sometimes, I thought of maybe subscribing to healthy meal delivery, but I've been warned since my stomach is sensitive plus the cost, so I've dropped the idea.

    One time we did the bunch cooking for a week, the ones we did when I was studying medicine at Laguna. Stored in freezer and just reheat it, early planning. It was a great convenience and budget friendly, we even saved money for a new gadget at the end of the week! However, the next weekend, schedules poured in like waterfalls and we were not able to conform to the bunch cooking again.

    It was short but I loved how time saving bunch cooking is, and we had spent time together cooking a fun activity plus healthy and you're sure of the handling process. I'll invite them to do this again whenever we can.

    The wooden toothbrush



    I've ordered a bunch of toothbrush at shopee around 10 pcs for 100 pesos, it was great, till I saw plastic packaging inside, it did feel I still consumed plastic. Anyway, my first thoughts include is the bristle soft? Will it make gums bleed? How long will it last? Is it sanitary to use?

    I've used them for 5 mos now and influenced partner to use at the same time, but he said he'll be switching back to plastic. Why? Yeah molds and comfort are two things he didn't like. He said his gums bleed and molds tend to get attracted, so he had to change frequently. For me, it was bleeding gums, but it didn't mold since I store it inside a dry container in the cabinet. I will continue using it but I wish to find a supplier that won't use plastic packaging.

    Eco Bags



    My first step was to buy my favorite eco bag with a print of a cute sleeping dog named paningning. It was small, however I have more of them coming from my blogging gigs, I've collected them near door area so when we go out, it'll remind my partner to bring one eco bag. We were able to exercise for 4 mos but on 5th month my partner grew tired and forgot to bring them anymore. Sigh.

    Traditional japanese cookwares



    This one is my favorite, since we needed new cookwares and I'm swooning over the ones koreans uses on their videos. We have blessing of japanese thrift shops in our area, the best part is that the ones I brought was never used, kept and almost brand new! We started with clay pots, wood cups, rice wooden scoops.

     Claypots are the steal, they cook everything enhancing flavor and good temperature quite nicely! The cups are light and visually pleasing yet they tend to break easily, but its only worth 15 to 20 per piece and I needed to exchange only one so its fine.

    Small cute rectangular plates were blessing, they were being sold in munoz shoe store, yes shoe store sold for P 10.00 each and we took them all, we didn't find out at first but it was plastic.

    The cursed iron cast

    My partner was taken at the sight of a heavy black iron cast soup cookware, he didn't even inspect it but when we tried cooking on it, we noticed a taste different. There was rust underneath and it got into our food, we're fine except for the recent trips to bathroom. He says he'll need to clean it before using it again.

    Japanese art tray



    We scored one almost brand new tray that just arrived for a price around 200 pesos. It came with a box, so artistic, I didn't throw it out, kept it and used as storage for other things. The tray is bigger than usual plastic trays bought on superstores and the art oh, the art is made by japanese artist, I feel guilty to use it, but I have to use it that's why i bought it.

    Glass food container

    Glass food container worked great in preserving cooked food, I stored sinigang in it for 7 days and it perfectly preserved even with veggies, the downside with it is that it comes with plastic lid which secures it well however still is plastic. This practice was a real time and effort saver, for cooking food ahead for one week means that I won't need to cook for the next days again and that leaves me to only cook rice instead, saves so much time and effort!

    Were still a long way to go with our practice of eco ways, right now I couldn't help my family to stop consuming plastic carbonated drinks, heck they'll kill me if I try to stop them, so what we only do is bring them to recycling shops nearby or whenever a magbobote comes by and buys our plastics. How do you think I can convince my family not to consume plastic wrapped chips or plastic carbonated ones when they feel that it saves them a lot of money and effort, also whenever they buy something outside, how do I convince them everytime not to have it in plastic? It's tough but if you have anymore ideas, it would be a great help if you can suggest.

    . Monday, July 29, 2019 .

    One overcast day, we spent time for a quick check-in for a guest, the day is a painting of a cold cozy time, we didn't take it the slowest but we had a cherished each moment that pass by. I've been obsessing on Lo-Fi music lately and I saw a local artist even made a simple scene from everyday life with Lo-Fi music, it was sweet to see dreams are fulfilled. I thought my own and I admit I took a longer time to recuperate from happenings last year and the threats lately are becoming a nuisance and took some time to resolve, but I let myself take all the time I need. I know that it was not usual of me to take a long time to heal however, I understand that I am in a different level of challenges and facing major exams that no school can teach.

    So I let myself heal... and I'm glad I did.

    I took my baby steps and people were surprised at my progress, even I was surprised. I never knew that all I need was to step back a bit and I'll spring up even higher; all I need was a time off for myself and appreciate all the wonderful things around me.

    I couldn't believe my eyes when I took on a challenge, it was not a new hobby, but those that I was not good at before; at least I thought. They came in naturally, I was my own guru.

    The biggest part that I feel did a great contribution was when I 'moderately disconnected' , yes I can't fully disconnect or I won't have a way of living. I was also thinking of maybe removing those that I feel do not contribute to my growth, mostly persons in my list, I'm trying out a screening process and I feel that it's better, I'm not used to burning bridges, can't do that cause I use that for work. So, since I could not avoid the situation, I used some of my knowledge in technology to provide an alternate option, I'm hoping it works, so far it's 2-3 months of observation and I'm loving the result.


    My patience reflected on how long my hair is. Gosh, It's even longer than my usual wig and quite coarse at the new hair on top. I love the outcome that I see, my hair feels it had it's own vacation in a while. I thought of cutting it but I feel manager wants a real haired Nezuko, so I think that won't happen yet. 


    It came out effortless that my skin looked pale when I played with the filters, I can pass as a young medium length vampire and even the weather was agreeing! It was cloudy and about to rain, 
    it's perfect for a budget ramen, a walking distance from the condo, at U.P town center, we went round and round looking for what we know looks like a normal food area for mall but took us more than 30 minutes in finding and when I came upon what looked like a store, we were surprised that it was the food court we were looking for at second floor front area! Ramen costs only 99 pesos and I bought in as usual, Sinigang. You know I wouldn't pass opportunity not to have my favorite meal, right?



    That's U.P town budget food court, I've taken fancy with Ramen 99 and Adobo connection.
    The whole place is airconditioned, it's really comfy to eat warm food even it's hot outside, there are many seats to accomodate everyone. I'll gladly look for the best gems in the area, a budget friendly food hunt. 

    Even if we ordered food with Ramen 99, we sat at Adobo connection where I ordered their Sinigang with rice and iced tea.

    The ramen broth is light and the pork is soft, to be honest other than the pop up store in laguna, this was my 2nd ramen to taste, next time, we're planning to get an authentic one to check the difference.

    We went back at the suite and it was already refreshingly cold from the last time we were there, so comfortable and the bed draws me in to sleep, the best part is that with a fast connection and cable tv, we've watched so many movies we can till the client check's in. We thanked the condo for serving our guest in the future amd that it will give the best vibe it can to make their stay comfortable.



    We went in to check U.P town and meaw was so excited to see a Suzuki Jimny 2018, he said the reason why is that this is the representation of Pacquiao, the one of the smallest 4x4 offroad, a legend! He won an umbrella in a dice game.



    The view is just breathtaking from the top of the suite. Actually every 6 am or the time when sun rises, the whole place looks like an ocean as the area up to the mountain ranges are covered with clouds that looked like waves, amd shore is visible below.




    A four leaf clover drawn at the Miriam University's field, signifies a great luck, which we had cause we won the dice game!




    Till next time of visit again. I wish I could spend more time here and possibly have another pool dip again. I'm missing it.



    . Friday, June 28, 2019 .



    Today I've purchased noiseless blog theme for $7.00. It was exquisite and minimal, I get inspired to take beautiful photograph. We have so many new things lately including a new computer whose owner owns a computer shop. We were surprised to have a whole set of PC, the performance was so fast and incredible, you can see how much they have maintained it, it has a lot of games though. We also changed into beauty lights. See, we had so many new things they are all for great investment for the future. A new writing app keeps me very inspired , I've paired with a marble theme keyboard and damn minimalism at its finest. 

    The blog has such a simplistic beauty that I was dying to have since, the menu bar has become my most favorite area, because it has a category section which I always look for when searching for a theme, and its like this theme knows what I need most. 

    There was a simple line framing at the sides, it looks so professional and sophisticated. You've got everything you need despite of the simple design. This minimalism I know is also being like by Jose Rizal, we visited and saw his actual business card on a tour to shoot for work and I can definitely tell he is a minimalist. Wish I could be minimalist all through out, I'm still working on that.

    The menu is not the only thing I struggle to look for a minimalism convenience, but the title name of my blog is a simple font yet aligned and designed completely uncluttered and its what I wanted for so long. 

    When I loaded the website, it was truly a jackpot. My content loaded swiftly, no lags and truly responsive in nature. While designing the page and writing for a new post I can't help but listen to calming cafe sounds on the background and my work flowed easily.  Since, I've been starting to be happy and contented with what I have achieved lately, great blessings we're attracted and I received gifts. Everything is laid out for optimum inspiration and I would agree it has become a recharged. 



    This was my former theme style years back, sort of a horizontal individual feed of latest posts, I had a list style before and I wasn't pleased with how some of the buttons functions, I'm not sure maybe its because i didn't pay for it and used the free version? Anyway, it was tough to customize and this seemed to give all the function I need and its highly aesthetic. 

    I was worried that when google plus was removed, the comment area would be unfunctioning , but it was not affected. This time, I am enthusiatic to capture images that will suit the blog. I shall do my best, you know how hard it is for me to keep on the theme hehe... but I shall try.
    . Sunday, March 03, 2019 .


    I must be blessed. Last time we were out and just walking inside a semi house hardware store near the area, I came across a rare find. It was sitting on a shelf top but no ones takes the interest to pick it up and by the moment I wore it, I understood why. It was just like in cinderella's scene but I didn't have a prince to put the shoe, I did so myself and the size blew me off, it was the perfect fit. I thought it was just waiting for me, when we saw the price was only for P299, it was a good bargain. Finally a kawaii lolita shoe, surprising that it also pairs with my favorite hand sewn bag.



    I dream of finally waking up my lolita side, many a times did mom shown me my child lolita dresses yet I have forgotten. The dreams that was created and how magical that world is.


    I definitely miss the frostee shop which closed at hypermarket, it was the treat of the moment after a long grocery I hate it.


    My favorite sweet Filipino treat, Espasol, a sweet powdery rice cake wrapped in white paper, very natural and organic that melts of goodness and sensation.

    • Mom gave it to me and I immediately had flashbacks of my childhood sweet escapades. Maybe next time I'll do a full lolita photoshoot with my newest member of the shoe family. Till next time then.
    . Thursday, February 28, 2019 .



    The real purpose is self-love and appreciation. Now, you will have time to focus on yourself. Finally understanding that Letting go of the things you cannot control is the key. Life is short and fragile, live each day as it were the last. The purpose was to capture the beauty and stop time as if it will forever be in a time capsule. No one understood what it truly meant to you. Yet deep inside, you knew it was a therapy, a way of appreciating God's personalized gift, only you had. It's okay, it is never too late, he preserved it until the day you are Ready to embrace it once more.

    Just wait. You'll find your answers, it's just hidden within you, but in time it will Reveal. Let me remind you to try reading books and listen to music. Do you want to know why people love reading them? Surely, you must remember. It is in those books that you create and immerse in a universe so deep, no one can harm you there. Everything happens for a reason. That's probably the most common words you've been hearing on your head, but what you probably missed are the Blessings greater than what you expect, you know that when it comes, it will be the envy of everyone. But oh, It's yours! it's personalized! It will definitely be something that cannot be taken from you, similar to what your grandfather taught you. 

    Take your time. Weren't you working hard for this moment? You've earned it, savor the triumph, you've done Magnificent. Never worry of your puffy eyes. Do you remember that the more you cry the more the doll forms. Many are into this art, but few understand it's meaning, only you do.

    It's okay to burst out sometimes, never apologize for feeling something. It's how you feel and that is not a fault. It reminds you that you are a human being capable of emotions. You may cry if you need to. You may also try tidying up. tidy up all the stresses, if you can tidy up the person stressing you, ha ha, okay that's exaggeration but what I'm trying to say is, you can channel this out by doing your usual defense mechs, by the way, yours is perfect since it makes everything clean

    You are one of the blessed ones. Yes, in this reality apples or whatever it is falls from trees. Many has witnessed it and you know that. Silently savor the blessing or you may share it with a friend! but I don't need to tell you this, since you always share it when you get one. 

    By the way, I stumbled on a little girl carrying only initials on her name. She said to tell you a message,

    "You're awesome! I wish I could grow up like you :)"

    she told me that her time was up and she might never grow up the way you do. However, she said that you can do it for her instead.

    . Wednesday, February 20, 2019 .



    I am thankful. I can feel his presence with me. It's his birth month and I've been filled with lots of questions in my mind. I've been blessed all through out and these bountiful gifts just appears out of nowhere. Still, I am truly grateful. I miss him a lot and I know he does too. He never fails to let me know and feel the same happiness we share together. The truth is, we always have conversation, but I never remember the content of the conversation, all I could remember was the light and happy feeling of that moment, I would understand if that conversation was not supposed to be remembered, as for me, it was okay, all I ever wanted was to see and be with him again. I am already blessed enough to see and converse with him more than ever, there's nothing else I could look forward to.

    He is always there to protect and guide me as always. Sometimes, he would warn me. It would even be accurate warnings, too detailed that it let's me be ready of what  ever situation I will face, thus it helps prepare my mind and body so that I won't get shocked and go sick again. Often times, he discusses the troubles, I show him what I can do and the limitations or blocks would be given a solution. I can feel that he carries with him everyone. Everyone I would love to see again, I can feel them with him always. Sometimes, when I picture out telling this to someone, they might ask "Aren't you scared? freaked out?" I could imagine myself telling them, "I would even stay there just to be with them again, I miss them a lot, there isn't an inch of fear in me."

    I'd tell meaw out of nowhere, "You're really strong", he'd ask "why do you mean?". Then I'd reply, "You're really strong because you're not scared to lose them, I know you miss them a lot but I never see you with any emotion like mine", and then he replies, "Why be sad when in such a short time, we'd be with them soon". It wasn't the first time I heard it, he would say it every time I am missing them or asks him. Yes, it will only be a short time, but I wanted to show them what I am doing and the things I accomplish, moreover, give them the recognition for being so supportive despite my shortcomings. Yet, I already know the answer if I would ask meaw, he'd probably say " no need to, they have the front seat"

    It is only now that all the pieces of the puzzle started to come together. He was communicating with me all along. I felt his presence, although I did not know what it was since I had my third sense closed long time ago, he has surely given me an interesting workbook puzzle, something that we always bonded together, figuring out each appropriate method/s and one by one putting pieces together and enjoying the victory of finding the answers. It was so like him. It was so much fun and I'm looking forward to the future. The best part of this is that he knows what will happen, he knows how I'm feeling and what I wanted to tell him, almost as if when I talk to him, we could only talk about how fun and exciting life is. I'm sure he'd love that.

    It's your special day, thank you for always guiding us. We miss you, a lot. 
    . Thursday, February 14, 2019 .



    Every Valentine's day we do not celebrate it in restaurants. We do not go out on dates or take a few walks. It's not because we are against of the celebration but mostly because of what happened the last Valentine's day date.

    During our first 4 years together, we used to go in a battlefield of lovers every Valentine's and yes, we knew about reservations but since we were only students at that time, our budget was limited and could not afford such an expensive reservation. We would walk at SM North EDSA or Trinoma stretch and check on every restaurant for a space to eat, the restaurants we're always jampacked and we would end up eating at home instead. This gave a huge frustration to my bf as he wanted to give me a memorable Valentines, and up till the last time we tried, he almost got into a fight as some men with either girlfriend / wife was staring at me to the point that it angered their partners. My bf of course did not want my Valentine's memory to be a disaster so he decided that we would never go out during Valentine's day. For more than 10 years, we would celebrate Valentines day at home, he would often cook my favorite meals and give me presents at home. This gave him a peace of mind and less pressure because he could cook whatever I crave or wish for, but till this Valentines day of 2019, we were left of no choice but to dine out again and why? I wasn't feeling well because of my continuous work and he was dead tired from work too, this time he couldn't cook anymore.

    In the afternoon, we went to our usual sizzling place and gladly, there weren't much customers at that time. We were able to dine without difficulty of lines, it was a big game changer, but at dinner another dilemma came in, I could no longer ride too far from our home and I do not want deliveries since I am already feeling sick, fast food would worsen my condition. In a quick moment, we thought of the newly opened dining place a few steps away from home. I was in doubt at first because when I tried two of their dishes on my first two dines, it wasn't to my taste, but we need to eat since I need to recuperate and he needed energy for his work.

    He thought of trying out other food on the menu, he ordered Pares Mami and Pork silog for me, then Pares Mami too for him, around 60 or 75 pesos per order. We were welcomed warmly by the usual persons who cooks and serves us everytime we dined in. It was cold every evening and the changes in climate worsens my condition, people on a hurry go down the jeep, hurry home and stopped by to watch the newly opened place, most of them order take out as they are too tired to dine.

    There weren't much customers and we were able to choose our own place to sit, I love their wooden tables, it definitely adds character and style. The first food served was their Porksilog, I took a bite and paired it with the garlic rice. The meat was juicy, full of flavor and breading gives a salty covering to the meat, the garlic rice gave an asian touch in my mouth and then I whispered to him, "I found my favorite". He was actually staring at me the whole time as his order hasn't arrived yet. I continued bite after bite and the next thing I knew the next order was delivered shortly.

     Pares Mami's bowl was to our surprise, I thought it'll just be any medium sized bowl, but for me, one bowl would be good for two! I immediately cleaned my spoon of rice and swiped into the Pares mami soup, the warm garlic beefy soup woke up my senses and warmed me, the best part was they placed a good amount of onion leek which when I started to sip and my throat cleared!

    I next tried their noodles, they were longer in length and width was somewhat bigger than the usual noodles, I thought that it might be difficult to chew but this assumption proved me wrong, they were soft and easy to chew, since the noodles are different from usual noodle sizes, I felt that it satisfied my hunger immediately. I looked at my partner and then I noticed that he was already indulged in his Pares Mami too.

    I smiled and noticed that the staff were also playing great songs in the background, they wanted us to enjoy the night and because of that some passersby couldn't resist and ordered too. We were on the middle of enjoying the meal when we were surprised to hear my partner ordering Bagnet Silog,  I was delighted to see him enjoying an appetizer I guess, it took only a short while, his order was served and I offered him to have a piece of my meal in exchange of his. Well, that's my way of telling him I wanted to know his meal's taste.

    We were on discussion of how good pair we had for the first meal when I halted and went quiet while chewing the newly ordered meal, Bagnet. I felt at loss and defeated, the skin was crispier than those of my porksilog, meat melts with fat in my palate. We were silent for sometime, I knew he was also analyzing every taste of this meal, but for me, I am already on a pictured anime defeat cry, he had chosen a real winner.

     Our drinks was a large sized mountain dew and it was kept cold because they have a good freezer to store them, chugging down till the last drop on the cup, the sweet carbon felt like a reward for a job well done. I felt the whole experience was too perfect, it was different from what happened to us every time we would try to dine in to restaurants and would go home tired, annoyed and hungry. Hopefully, this changed my bf's sour memory of our past valentines dates outside, I told him that it felt like broke our tradition of our usual Valentine's celebration. At first he felt hesitant and said "but it wasn't a fancy one" then followed "...but we had a wonderful time, ambiance, meal and were welcomed, it was all worth it.". I smiled at him and told him I felt better, which I did and wrote down this almost short story blog, you can very well say I was inspired too.

    Pictures to follow, I didn't bring any cameras with me as I wasn't feeling well holding on to anything. 
    . Tuesday, January 01, 2019 .



    This year I wanted to make a change and I decided to plan it very early as in to the literal start of the year. A dream or a goal board is my answer to organize an inspirational visual plan. Keeping a goal and rewarding self is one of the essential part of my life, once I have a clear path of what I wanted to do and achieve it, the feeling of fulfillment echoes, maybe when I look back at my retirement days and smile upon it. My goals I've kept on my dream Board are minimalistic as four pictures, in it, I will already be reminded of what are the list of plans I want to attain in the span of a year. The pictures by the way are only references I took from the internet, they're not mine.


    1. A picture of a bed with pastel tone sheets.

    It's not much different from what I am using today, since I use the pastel pink conforter on my bed, white pillows, but I'd like to add a bit of pastel gray color scheme this time. I'm adding them to my windows, I will be sewing them if I didn't find a suitable one for me. The interiors can't be seen there but I've also used this picture to remind me of my latest interior craze for contemporary style, meaw liked low lying bed, so I feel japanese style suits it. Check the picture of attachment for inspiration.
    I am planning to paint the walls gray. The room is just too bright that I could not sleep if I am on graveyard shift. Lastly, the project on the floor seems left behind, I'd like to push in to deadline this year.

    Why am I prioritizing the bed?

    I spend like most time there,  I even wrote this while lying down at bed, yeah so I spend most activities there I'd rather make it my place of sanctuary. We we're hesitant to get a platform bed since I use the space sometimes for my studio, but I found a good place to set-up my studio, so I think thats not going to be a problem anymore.

    2. Cute anime girl in pink hair

    This drawing will remind me of many things, my fashion goals, my cosplay goals, my hair goals and my creative manga goals.
    It's probably not new to you how much I love pastels and kawaii clothes, so I plan to make more and make cute cosplays too. Oh, my hair goals, actually, I have to fulfill my collaborations for hair that takes years already. I must finish them now, I am sponsored with not only for hair coloring but also for maintenance and treatment, but since I don't do the maintenance, my hair is in trouble, I can't spoil anymore time, I need to finish it now and follow the maintenance. Sheesh.



    3. A Pilipinas stamp

    Yes, I found that I must focus more on my travel niche part of my blog and vlog.Although the stamp is usually used for delivering mail, but nowadays its used as a good adornment for travel journals. So, its the perfect symbol of my travel goals.

     I have been waiting to and could not fulfill them since I am preoccupied with many things, this year though I'll be a traveler, not a tourist. I'll slowly learn the culture and appreciate the beauty on my own time. I will not be there to just snap a selfie on that place but be able to truly connect with its history or beauty.


    4. Do epic shit

    Yes, with all of these combined I have to keep in mind that with everything I do, I must do it with quality. If speed is a must, I should master both quality and speed.

    This year I vow to do another epic, its been 3-4 years since my last epic work has launched, it's time to make another and there's no stopping, just fulfilling.


    . Monday, December 17, 2018 .


    They're at it again. The connection became sluggish and the system moves on its own with unexplained errors. They're definitely at it again. This scenario is the same, whenever hackers try to do what they're good at 'hack'. Mostly they would have my browser's activities and desk activities, then from my searches at most, they would have a new trendsetting ideas. It's not new to me, they've been doing this, the best part is that they would garner credits and profit from it. I follow several creators, like Auraqualic to name a few, and being original does have what they call the greatest flattery of all 'copycat' but the heartaches the creators feel when the creations they made are used against them is shattering.

    A few months back, I made geek radio. I made it because I've seen creator's heart crushed by these people. I wanted the radio to serve as inspiration to ignite that passion that these people had put out. I know the feeling and now I've felt it more than ever. I wish that this reached out to the creators feeling the same and is battling it out. We're he're and we feel the same.

    I dont credit this as mine, but my searches about an 'ear cuff and tondo' has been on my history years and months back. It is a good trendsetting keywords that I saw became a world winner. People may have a hard time believing especially for some small time blogger like me to say it, but it happens. I teared upon watching one earrings designer had told her story of her very own copycat. She had a hard time coping up with it and it almost feels like you lost a part of your life with it. I usually shrug this off, but this time I could no longer ignore. There are only few creators in this world and their dreams are being crushed, only a few understand the value of creators and many misunderstood them. 

    My very own idol, I looked up to has lied low. She's been through a lot when she became a sensation, to the point it shattered her life, but all she did was just to share her masterpieces on her page, yet the world became cruel to her and now they no longer speak of her name moreover curse her for the monstrosity of her works of art. Because of this I never see her share her works freely anymore, which I wish and adore so much, she inspires me and even when I reach out to her to encourage her, the pain she felt had affected her, how I miss her usually carefree works and now its gone.

    I am angered by these people a lot, not only were they only taking and crediting themselves but they even kill the original creators dreams. I asked one co-creator of mine, how they're able to make it through this a double edge curse and blessing, and I feel that there really is no solution nor remedy with this, yet as long as you're breathing, you can always try to fulfill your dreams. This is not new news, like chanel said ' if you want to be original, get ready to be copied'

    Its inevitable, but just keep on moving forward, the most important of all is you fulfill them, doesnt matter if they even get greater credits from it, what matters is that your dreams are fulfilled because thats some accomplishment you can take with you in next eternal life.

    Always remember,

    Look at your path, it doesn't matter if they follow you. You lead it. Enjoy the moment and never sway.

    . Saturday, December 15, 2018 .



    Cool cold season finally hit Q.C and It's a bit late than expected, a few days ago I was a busy bee for doing cosplay and I'm happy the weather was cold because I didn't sweat like a pig trying on the costumes, I still had to turn the air con for a while when I had to shift back to a warmer costume. My inspirations always hit me during cold season, maybe because since the temperature invites a great thinking atmosphere. I would often wonder what I will prioritize, maybe read a book? Study a new program? Make a new manga? Do cosplay crafting? There's so much I want to do and I'm going to get sad if the cold season gets over quickly. I looked over my closet and noticed that every wear ready are for summer. Well, it's always summer in the Philippines that's why, but I wonder it would ve be nice to wear my fashion coats, yet I feel very shy to wear them, many people would probably stare that I wear it.
    It's not custom in the Philippines to wear a coat, a cardigan is fine but not coats, and here I am with a collection of coats catching dust in my closet, I wear them on special formal occasions instead. This december, I really have the urge to wear them but I might not be able to.

    Last year's countdown to Christmas was my busiest time when we had joined numerous blogging gigs and parties. It was a downpour of blessings, but this year, its definitely a surprise in having cosplays as demand, wherein it was last year's november demand. I am quite confused but I feel that it wasnt so bad as it might be a great preparation for next year and I'm excited!

    Lately, I've been selling and purging several items on my closet. I do this yearly when I can but I am hands down, gave up to a lot of stuff in my closet I can't purge them all. I might be spending a few more months to do it.

    I have this craze of watching people do their journals and listening to cute cafe music, i usually pair it with my favorite hot tea or choco and this makes me feel calm, warm, satisfied and happy. What surprise was when I tried ovaltine cookies, i found in a shelf alone in supermarket and was astonished with the sweet taste.


    The news had said that COD is open again, COD means Christmas on display, its a moving mannequin situated near Araneta Center and it bought the best Childhood memories of Filipino child back then. I wanted to go there, bring my mom, but I figure out that she might have a hard time to go because of the crowd and traffic, she is after all not in good shape due to age, but how I wish to relieve the past of visiting there with her.

    It's been quiet in the neighborhood, our dogs and hedgehog had gone hibernation and I feel that I might go on hibernation too as the chilly weather is inviting for a whole day at bed. There isn't much to think about since we have loads of ham for the festive season coming from giveaways and mom just questioningly bought more which we don't understand why. I would be looking forward to having a hot coco on our tea sets soon. Mom is the real deal lolita, since she was a young girl, she would be dressing in one cute lolita dresses and her collection of tea sets are too many to count, her tradition to use them for Christmas became unique 'Christmas feel', I would be dressed in lolita but I keep it simple so its easy to move around. I'm happy that we're able to be together, last two years ago I was stuck at work since the whole team are assigned to spend the christmas and new year, we were unlucky at that time, but the next years I prefer to spend it with mom, I want to treasure each holiday with her even when she's grumpy all the time.

    Speaking of grumpy, my hedgie, ero might get a bath soon but he doesnt seem to want one as he entered the hibernation mode.

    I am overjoyed with the latest addition to my kitchen collection and what's more is that I got them in a bargain price of only P10.00 each. I took all of whats on the shelf, we're planning to do a feast this holiday.


    Speaking of which, I found this page preciousplastics on facebook and I am very much happy that a way to recycle plastics to make new products are on now on the market, they have all the instructions if you want to build a machine. I wish we can partake in this soon.

    My binge on watching serene korean simple life videos made me want their 'cafe' like interiors. It's not far from what we have at home but needs a bit of touch and it has potential. 
    . Tuesday, November 13, 2018 .

    Hello.


    It's been a while and the last time you've probably seen me is through my last posts on my profile timeline, I wonder if you've noticed that lately I became a guest to a game show which I feel is a birthday present. This was months ago that I'm talking to you about, but I feel that I should share with you a different side of the adventure.

    The question was who has the longest hair which runs past the waistline. The contestant was able to choose 2 correct answers by choosing the other girl choices and on the very last option, confusion set in and the contestant chose the wrong girl which set the bomb to go off. Don't worry, it was just like a powder bomb. Turns out, if contestant chose me as the right answer, he would have won.

    On the backstage, you can already hear the voices of people including the seniors who shout their bets, I believe the contestant has faith with them, they were right on the first two, but why would they go wrong with the last choice, which was me.

    The choices and audience meet on the same spot, they saw us all even I on my long hair, but how did it get to the point that they don't recognize that I was with the long golden hair even taking lots of selfies with them.

    That is what I wanted to talk to you guys about.

    The one thing that you'd check most is the thickness of the bun, if you'll see mine, it has been binded well that you thought it won't get past my waistline. It was only flattened with flat iron and binded normally, but how'd that happen that the audience nor contestant did not even choose me?

    When I was summoned, it was sudden that I only have the night to prepare. I came rushing in to a nearby drugstore and bought hot oil, I thought this might be needed so as to help with the easy hair fix, I didn't know this did a good job. After I applied and air dried hair it became so soft and straight, but there's one thing I noticed, I got less hair than I had before. Yes, I would like to tell you that my hair hasn't been in the best condition these months. I am to blame. I am scheduled to undergo repair treatments since my last collaboration months ago and I did not go. I completely ignored my hair, I figured out how engrossed I was with my new streaming career that I never wanted to go anywhere. If I have another side of me, she'd probably hit my head with a fan. I feel guilty. Unlike my first bleaching treatment, I was diligent to go with the repair treatments and I suffer the consequences. Hell, did I not even pick up the free repair shampoos, thats the extent.

    When he did not choose me, I reflected on my past actions. It wasn't the first time that I became engrossed to what I love doing but I feel that this has became a blessing in that it made me realize to take good care of myself even more. Yet still, here I am writing up my guilt but I only made little effort with the repair treatments which should've been consistent.

    By the way, the video for the game show is also on my youtube page, you may check it out, type reshadaseamaiden and it's named SIMPLE BLESSINGS.

    Not only did I have the opportunity to prove to you guys that I am a breathing human being, but I myself had hit a hard realization. When I was young, which please don't ask about my age, I never did care about my health at all, I always recover immediately anyway but it is true that if you continously neglect it will eventually take toll on you and before you know it, it's difficult or impossible to bring back optimum health.

    Lately, I've been hanging out with younger individuals and most of them are in more stress than youths before, both mentally and physically. They usually push themselves to the breaking point. I've had moments like those when I was younger and the same age, but I can observe that it's has gotten a lot worse with today's youth pressure.

    I've been away for a while though, soon I might even be thinking of getting further looking into a good self-meditation in a fresher environment, but with the months that gone by, it cleared my mind, better organized both thoughts and things around me, made sound decisions and finally taking care of myself.

    I may be as quiet as the wind but I slash though.

    Creativity is on the highest peak and efficiency stabilized. I can feel better control of my actions and sound mind. I am loving the peacefulness I feel nowadays.

    I only wish I can meet with some of my busy bee friends for a cup of tea. I miss them, they are far away and although technology helps a lot with communication, nothing beats with meeting them in person.

    How about you, would you choose me as your right answer?
    . Tuesday, October 16, 2018 .






    It took a month for me to realize and finally get to my healing process. If you're wondering what I mean by "healing" it's the literal word of alleviating or relief. What was I healing for?

    To be totally honest, I've been damaged emotionally. I've dedicated my time, focus and effort for a benefit of others that I myself was thought like "maleficent". I was devastated and just like maleficent I wanted to close myself from the outside world, I generalize thoughts that all people are the same as the ones who have done harm and became "absent" from online community. In doing so, I went out of my shell, met new friends, reconnected with the physical world and learned to looked at the world clearly. It was not easy though, in 2 weeks I feel the need to go back and doubted myself, but after those weeks I began to realize that isn't so and finally was able to get back on track of what my goals are, everything that happened made me realize that I should never forget my real goal, maybe it's time to be a bit more selfish and focus on attainment on that goal. I've had given so much to everyone but what I was given back was all negativity, I was not expecting anything from people but least the negativeness have trampled and made my goals dim.

    Surprisingly, I was healed by an old hobby I love. Creating memories and documenting them, we really are too much indulged into the high-tech era that there are beautiful experiences we often miss. I sincerely thank you my supporters for helping me get back on track, you've all noticed the changes and helped me get up and stand on my feet again.

    The journey really isn't about how hard you fall but how you were able to rise up from falling.

    I am thankful that this happened, so I realize what I should focus on and be more eager to attain my goals. Amazing how the best teacher gives you the best lesson that you'll never forget and it's the proof of bountiful living. For you, that is confused, all I can say is be patient, like really patient. Sometimes, it takes years for the answer to come, but it will come, everything does happen for a reason and I've witnessed and seen it so just trust on the journey and enjoy what life has to offer.
    . Saturday, September 22, 2018 .



    Hi There!

    I've received cute gifts this birth month and would like to share them to you. First, I want to to thank Mom, Ms. Julie and Sis Loida for the gifts. They are all so cute and helpful, I can't wait to carry them with me.


    Given by Ms. Julie, these Pastel undies are two match darlings, they are just perfect for pairing with my pastel clothes and would blend well with the fashion. Although, these babies are never seen me wearing on cam, they are candy to my eyes at times I take glances in mirror in it. This just sets the mood of the days fashion, now I know why yandere-chan prioritizes which undies to wear at school.

    Courtesy of Ms. Loida,
    A mini Hello Kitty pink wallet that fits not only phone but almost all essentials on the go. I plan to carry it inside bag but if I just take trips on neighborhood 7-11 or supermarket, these will be the capturing glances while I bring it.

    Gift by Ms. Julie,

    A White striped offset blue blouse that is just perfect for my blogging or cosplay gigs, its a good casual look but with a touch of elegance, right on time if I need to switch between my two roles on the same day. It can go from casual to classy just by adding beaded accessories, pairing it with a cute skirt or slacks and many more, possibilities are endless, the best thing is that it has its own adjustable belt on place for fitted look.


    Gift by meaw

    A lazy phone holder. He gave it to me for comfort when I'm streaming or watching on my phone. What I love about it is that it's rotatable from landscape to portrait.

    So, there we go, the last one is a special paper from mom, but can't snap a pic of that. Later, she gave me this super loli pantsu.



    Thank you so much again, I know most of you guys are living far away and you've sent me great gifts, I love you all~

    . Wednesday, September 19, 2018 .



    Today is a very special day. I've been blessed since day 1 of the month but the greatest gift is being felt given to me.

    I would never have realized it sooner, but when the situation came, I've found that I am in fact the most blessed with a great gift this birthday special..

    Many times, each year I would be looking forward to having physical gifts. Like a normal girl, I loved dresses and cool stuff that is given every birthday. They are precious and I love them.

    On stepping forward with another age, I've come to realize that pure happiness bearing the ultimate gift of all can be found only with a very simple thing as my family's safety.

    Yes, because I am extremely thankful that our home didn't get too much damage from the typhoon that's above us during my celebration of birth. There were countless disasters everywhere, including near my mom's workplace, but with God's grace, she wasn't there when it happened.

    I've come to realize that I only wanted one thing only for my birthday, and that is to keep safe with my family and nothing more. Maybe it's just how the way a person matures and realizes overtime, that no material thing can ever top of a everlasting happiness that you're safe and sound with the persons you love the most.

    Life is getting tougher for everyone nowadays and social media has kept heating up issues almost everywhere, so many heartaches and disasters everywhere that I can no longer stand and the only thing that keeps a person strong and intact with all these challenges in life, is non other than a genuine person who believes in them, encourages and leads them to grow. No other wealth or expensive gift can top that, so if you're a blessed one, cherish every moment you have with them. Nothing in this world is constant make sure you spend it with them.

    Life is really short, for me its so limited time and I despise the human frailty as weakness, I admit that I am searching for more time to fulfill many things that me and my family dreamt of building together, I feel down sometimes when I know that these dreams we share can take up even a second lifetime to fulfill, but I believe that I must continue this dreams that we created together.

    Mom wanted me to become a medical advocate and I would love to serve for my country the same too, but due to some instances along the way, the road has been blocked, with that in mind, I did not stop and conquered the dreams in small ways I could possibly can. I've shared my knowledge to help people with their cases and surprisingly prevented any future worsening condition from happening.

    Dad and I had a talk before he passed away, we both agreed on same dreams of becoming a legal advocate, I have passion with it and he liked the idea of having a daughter who's able to defend and fight for what's right. The dream did not pursue though, but every moment I am faced with a situation that needs the same, I've utilized every resource I have to fight and defend what is supposed to be done.

    Now, it doesn't end there, I've been working on a project which became a real long term of more than 4 years already and I am ready to finish it, these dreams are shared and so many have sacrificed just to fulfill this, the road is not only rocky but having typhoons too, it feels like I am never going to survive, but I believe I can, as long as I don't stop and continue.

    My birthday is memorable. I'm continuously being blessed and my dreams are all coming true. Being guided by everyone and growing together, I felt even closer. Sometimes though, I get mood swings and thoughts cloud my mind as if I am not being given attention, but I say this to myself, you're not the only person going through tough times in this world, everybody might be busy battling but they will be there for you when the time comes. Just hang on tight, for now, be patient and God will soon send his angels to look after you.

    . Saturday, September 15, 2018 .



    When the clock stroke 12 and September 1 came, I received a great news of gift, lots and lots of opps and sponsorships contacted me especially a great deal of doing the things I love the most. I felt like I was dreaming already but the dream did not stop there. Continuosly, I received new celebratory gifts each day and even had the chance to be invited for a local tv show. I literally did not blink for more than 10 minutes, so shocked and kept telling myself I am not dreaming at all!


    A gift to be paid in doing what you love
    Then much more than that, schedules for the gift have been extended till October, its a big OMG. Often times, if you'd probably see my tired eyes during streams are because I've been up and awake cherishing and fulfilling the gifts, but even with the stream itself are the gifts! Hehehehe.

    I've had so many great birthday celebrations from everyone throughout the whole month and I am overwhelmed to receive such blessings even from strangers I don't know, turned out to be a fan! Thank you!!

    This month I've had a hard time documenting the gifts I received so I am placing them here as my Diary, to remind myself that I am appreciated and loved by so many people, I feel complete!

    The gift of youth
    The best gift I ever received was everyone mistakes me for my age, when you guys have told me that I am in this certain age and was not able to guess my real age even with so many tries, this gave me the best compliment in the world! Thank you!

    When Birthday comes some say that this is another year added to a person's age, that is a fact. For me though I chuckled a lot because with my birthday coming up in a few days I've been told that I am years younger than what they expected,  of course, I am quite happy and overjoyed, but it did not stop there when people started offering me sponsorships that are for a younger age. This give me a real chuckle, I feel extremely flattered already that these opportunities for younger people are offered to me.

    Izakaya cuisines at home
    Then every single day, I was laid down with the most sumptous cuisines my heart desires, the chef even went away just to hunt the rarest and freshest quality gourment. This is literally a dream come true. I do apologize if I wasn't able to snap in pictures, most of the time I would forget because I was so indulged in the moments, I often forget to capture! Goodness me...

    But, with a good happiness shared along the way, I been more than fuelled with motivation to finish every collaborations and sponsorships with you. I'm keeping everything on schedule and without delay.

    Upgrade to Ultima
    It took a while and lots of patience was needed because we had been planning to upgrade my PC to its Ultima and the package finally arrived! Wohoo ! We rushed to a nearby comp. Technician to have the pieces installed and damn my baby is no longer a baby but one hell of a monster ready to devour anything that gets on its way, we tested and did the ultimate stream with it and so you now know I am now everywhere whenever I stream, no more lags!

    The gift of Beauty
    My sponsors saw that my skin hasn't been maintained and its all my fault for not maintaining it at all, so they had me do skin treatment where all the stars go in secret because of its effectivity. This was a sworn secret though I can't disclose, but after a day or a few hours of treatment my pimples cleared and damn it looks like I had korean hydration on my face every night in just one treatment. They were specialized for a busy lifestyle of stars that dont even need maintainance and had makeup even asleep, and with theirs, I can be myself, low maintenance at all and yes, I did have makeup when I sleep and still perfect skin. My only issue is that I haven't gone back for my eyebags treatment because I am lazy. Yes, admit..  Please dont tell my sponsors about this or they'll get mad. Omg. They were exerting so much effort to get me a healthy skin as possible and I keep telling them I feel that I dont deserve a grand treatment because Im not a star and they laughed at me and said "yeah, right and your facebook page live stream star says it all". Uuuuuuhhhh I feel really guilty!

    With all the skeds lined up, I would always lie down in my bed and go straight to sleep because I get all tired from the whole day but I've always have smile in my face before I fell as sleep and beautiful dreams with all the wonderful blessings.

    A good health and happy relationship
    Lastly, a good health for my family. Everything is going great and strong for everyone, the best gift nothing can compare! Mom and meaw are both feeling great and they would ask me go to with them in their exercises and long walks, I'm just soo sleepy though because of my time difference. Nevertheless, so thankful for my cheerful healthy family.