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| Around 10 years old attempt of Rosalinda cosplay with grandpa |
Grandfather prepared and warned me about this future over and over. He stressed that there will be a time that will come that we won't be able to go out of the home freely as we wish to and that a 'silent war' might happen.
'But I thought countries are all friends now' I said. 'For now' he replied and continued giving me instructions on how I could prepare for such a situation. Grandfather is a world war veteran, he is a role model among our family. He was one who walked in the death march, carrying all the strategies on survival as well as intel for years to come.
As the years passed, everything he taught to us we're slowly forgotten, some of it even we're forbidden, but I remembered. Now, I feel most at the guilt that I could not carry on his mission to me. However, I met someone with almost the same frequency as his, although sometimes careless on a side but there are points that are on him. He said that the orders can be carried out easily but when such a time comes that we can freely do it.
A month ago a friend went out to visit his mother ( a senior citizen ), he went all out protection with mask and suit, people laughed at him on his commute at the bus and didn't sit next to him. Later on, we found out that there were people there that have now carried most number of PUIs and PUMs cases in the country with the initial cases relating to his family's friends.
Supposedly a 'reunion' of the sort from one of his relatives was not invited because only those that can join are the one's who worked abroad and with $. Then the news broke out, it was just like karma to the ones who discriminated against his relatives and a blessing to his relative that he was forbidden to join. The incident paid the price for everybody in the whole region because they were already warned not to travel at that time due to the events, but they pushed through with the 'reunion'.
Now, when he traces his travel time, he said he did notice some of these people traveling in the same direction as his and they kept a distance from him because they think he might be weird or infected for being on full protective gear. All these stigmas turned out to be a thankful moment when he realizes that he might have gone on the same bus with these people and the sacrifice was worth it.
These days when he goes out, instead of being feared or judged, people trust him even more since he has the complete protective gear, unlike others.
I promised grandfather that I would protect his precious gem, but sometimes I have to be honest I give commendation to the old man how he was able to. The gem is stubborn as hell even when everyone around it has warned about this issue, the gem does the opposite of what shouldn't. I left to mumble my apologies and tears to his ghost of how this slips off my hands. He did warn me about the stubbornness of the gem and I underestimated it when I was around 10 years old, promising that I'll take care of it for him.
Back then, I feel I'm left with no choice and didn't understand why it feels that the universe wanted me to stay working at home. I am faced with consequences when I became stubborn and stayed working at a company. I thought to myself, my promise I made to God that I'll just train outside for a while is up and I kept on going, I too am stubborn. Now, I understand why I am pushed to my limits in seeking work from home. All my prayers answered in one event, just like that.
The work from home wasn't the only thing that God gave to me. He trained me to survive not going out, did that at Tamago and it was worth it. I didn't understand the value of these experiences before and now they don't compare to any lesson in the world.
When the news broke out to me, I've already seen posts from my chinese friends, yet, it feels too unbelievable so we didn't prepare at first. Now, it seems that it will turn out for worst. As their government says they are free of the cases, some of my chinese friends caught footages of their fellowmen on the floor, passed out and no one dares to touch.
My collegue told me, there would be wave after wave of resistance and immunity. It will be turning out for the worst. I only felt a feeling of envy at the time I saw my doll idol and I never thought I'd feel envy again with South Korea. My friends there posts like normal again, as their medical systems on detection and quarantine we're so effective, it only took them short time to solve the worldwide issue. It seems to be far from my hopes as more people become stubborn and won't abide by the quarantine even for a short month's period.
He told me that the funds would need to focus on detection, facilities and equipment for quarantine to make this work amd that he fears that by sometime the special 'team' would be dispatched soon, which should not be brought to that extent as they are one of the last line of expertise for this scenario. It can't be avoided, because the wave seems to focus on a macho showdown and they'll be awaken by a time that all are worse.
I feel down and to be honest, my productiveness dwindled immensely. Anxious of everyday especially hearing news that there already affected area a few villages away.
It's a no wonder grandfather always wants me to fulfill my dreams. He says that not only did they not have this opportunity before, but a time will come that we might be able to do these things when people take them for granted. Looking back, I've fulfilled most of the things I love to do, although I still have plans for more in the future but they would be prioritized according to importance, there would be changes to come and I am hoping they come true.
